{"id":3768,"date":"2015-10-15T16:14:23","date_gmt":"2015-10-15T16:14:23","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/marniemarcus.com\/unplugged\/?p=3768"},"modified":"2015-10-15T16:33:23","modified_gmt":"2015-10-15T16:33:23","slug":"would-you-change-anything","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/marniekuhns.com\/unplugged\/2015\/10\/15\/would-you-change-anything\/","title":{"rendered":"Would You Change Anything?"},"content":{"rendered":"

This morning I found a new song by Sara Bareilles. I often feel like Sara has written the soundtrack to my life. This song is no different, “She Used to Be Mine”<\/strong> <\/em>may not feel like exactly where I am now, but I think it’s a great snapshot of some points along my path. Especially, in those times where I\u00a0screwed up royally and longed for the girl or woman I\u00a0used to be.<\/p>\n

I’ve listened to this song several times today and had a conversation with my mom about it. (Love, my angel Mama, by the way.)<\/p>\n

[youtube width=”500″ height=”344″]https:\/\/youtu.be\/DToejUka-XU[\/youtube]<\/p>\n

\"if<\/a>We’ve mused about whether we’d change things in our lives. Would we rewrite some endings for the girls we used to be?<\/p>\n

Problem is, the big things that I’d want to change are like threads in a tapestry that gets mutilated when I extract them.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Remove my first marriage, and I might not have the children I have. Remove the crazy, stupid love-turned-to-heartbreak, and I wouldn’t have key wisdom and perspective\u00a0that\u00a0helped me\u00a0fully appreciate and value the man\u00a0who’s sharing the second half of my life.<\/p>\n

The only thing I might change is I’d wait until I was older to marry.<\/strong> At 19, I didn’t even know who I was. My brain wasn’t even fully developed! I had no experience with men or love or hormones. I didn’t know that hormones could make you see people through a completely\u00a0unrealistic lens.\u00a0I didn’t know how much hormones\u00a0distorted perceptions. I didn’t\u00a0fully learn that lesson until I was 48 and single again.<\/p>\n

Maybe if I’d taken my time when I was young, I would have matured and had enough experience to choose wisely. Then again, there’s the kids and my new hubby who loves me like I’ve never known love, and I think the price was worth paying.<\/p>\n

Yet, there are plenty of\u00a0small moments\u00a0I’d like to change…<\/p>\n